How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior, Chapter 12: Complex Answers

How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior
How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior, Chapter 12: Complex Answers

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"What's up again?"

Not a few days ago, Nic was still in a great mood, and everyone could easily tell. But today, while he was trying to call his boyfriend, he suddenly became in a bad mood, causing everyone to be afraid to come near him. However, the other person turned off the phone for no apparent reason and could not be reached by any means. And usually every time I call the other party, the other party is the first to pick up the phone, and today I don't know what is going on with him... disappeared without a trace.

"Could it be that he's rushing to work on a subject... but he should have said so in advance too."

Every time he forgot to call the other party, the other party would run deadpan to the door of his or his college and wait, no matter how late it was, and even after telling the other party to go back first, the other party would insist on staying and waiting for himself or himself. So when such a person doesn't come to see him without telling himself in advance, Nic has a hundred thousand question marks in his mind.

Could it be that someone is whispering nonsense in P’Tae's ear?

The more he thought about it, the more he felt that something was wrong with his boyfriend, so he snapped his fingers together and suddenly stood up.

"Hey Ai’Nic, where are you going?"

"Go get P’Tae."

The answer was brief, and Kla didn't say anything more when he heard it, a perverse move on his part. But Nic felt that now was not the time to go to Kla and ask questions, and the best thing to do was to find the boyfriend and ask him in one step. After all, if we find Tae, everything will be fine, because Tae will answer every question he asks.

Nic himself hadn't thought for a moment that this idea of his own could be so very wrong, because...

“Ai’Tae? He didn't come to class today, so you don't have to look for him."

"Is P’Tae not feeling well?" Nic remembered that Phi were the best friends his boyfriend usually played with, and since he was also his own seniors, he spoke respectfully. But admittedly, the way they looked at Nic wasn't very friendly... they stared at Nic like he was an enemy.

"How would I know? I am not his heels!"

"Didn't he tell you guys?" Even though Nic knew that the other person was picking on him, he did his best to control his anger and keep his tone of voice as normal as possible. If he remembered correctly, Phi who looked at him most unpleasantly should be called Ram.

"It's not like I am his husband."

"See what you're saying, Ram, Tae's own husband doesn't even know." As soon as the words fell, the three seniors' eyes fell on Nic's side in unison, as if they were provoking him. And that kind of look had actually gotten super annoying for Nic. He wasn't sure what he had done to piss off the three people across the way so much.

Yeah, I'm Tae's husband, I'm just asking because I don't know.

Nic clenched his fists, then said calmly.

"It seems I still put too much expectation on you guys, sorry to interrupt."

"Hey! How much do you mean by that?" Despite the fact that the other party was wearing an engineering school workshop uniform and was quite a bit bigger than himself, Nic didn't feel the slightest tremble in his heart, and he used his height of 185 to fight against the other party's stout and short body, with a firmness of defiance in his eyes. At this very moment, the slightly sensible one of the three came forward and separated the two.

"Oops, oops, enough is enough! Calm down Ai’Ram... as for you... we really don't know where Tae has gone, he hasn't come to class for days and hasn't called to tell us if he is sick. If you had his cell phone number, you would have known by now that he kept it off."

Seeing that the other side was finally a sensible one, Nic also took a few steps back and turned his head to the side with a frown. When he knew that none of the others knew more than himself, Nic hurriedly made a wai to the other.

It must be emphasized that he only gave the salute to the senior with the glasses, and as for the others, what was the need to be respectful?

"Thank you Phi, you are a sensible man."

"Hey! Are you saying I'm being nonsensical?"

After saying that, Nic immediately took off with a stride, not even looking at Tae's woo woo friend, Nic pondered as he walked, when exactly would he be able to find the cute little kitty. When the time came, if he saw the kitty, Nic would definitely grab him over for a good education and ask him how he got to play with the grumpy people. I don't need to guess, but I know that Tae's ideas are not unrelated to those guys.

"Didn't come to school either, what's going on?"

Nic had to admit that the innocent waitress had long since disappeared from his mind like a lonely boat drifting with the waves. Right now, Nic's mind was full of things about the guy who was playing the missing guy for no reason.






“P’Tae? Oh, you mean Tiw isn't here, are you his friend?"

"Are you P’Tae's brother, er Tiw's brother?"

"Hmmmmm, yeah."

If you can't find one at school, you'll have to go straight to the other person's house. However, just when Nic expected P’Tae to dart out of the house to greet himself while pouncing on him like a kitten with dimples on his face, he was met by Tae's brother. Only to see that the other was rolling up his sleeves very carefully wiping down a large motorcycle, and Nic could hardly believe at first glance that the other was Tae's own brother, because he didn't notice where the two looked alike until the other showed a smile.

The older brother had a bit of a fierce look, but he had the same dimples that Tae had when he smiled.

"Is P'Tiw not here?"

"Not in, he went out in the morning, off to school. Didn't you see him at school?" A cackle went up in Nic's mind, something must have happened to P’Tae, because after checking the places where he could be, he was nowhere to be found.

"P’Tae didn't go to school ah."

"Ow, he actually skipped class? But it's not likely, he doesn't look like that. He didn't have many subjects to choose from, but before, he used to run to school every day, and I didn't know what was so attractive about school. If he wasn't at school, then I wouldn't know. I also just got back from a drive with a car buddy and didn't see him all day." The boyfriend's brother finished, then crossed his thumb over his shoulder and pointed behind him, and Nic looked in the direction of his thumb and saw another red Ducati motorcycle quietly parked not far away.

No wonder P’Tae's motorcycle doesn't quite match his size, it turns out he stole his brother's bike to ride it.

"So, who are you?"

Uh, huh.

This simple question left Nic momentarily speechless and was debating how to answer the other. And at the moment, the other person was staring at himself with a serious look.

Yes, he hadn't seriously thought about the complexities of the matter and wasn't sure if what had happened was a farce or not.

"Nong... I'm his Nong." In the end, Nic came out with that answer anyway. Nic wasn't sure if he'd lost his eyes, as he seemed to see the curtain shake.

"Is there anything else you want then?"

The implication of this question is... an eviction order.

"No more, then I'll take my leave, bye." Nic raised his hand in a salute while speaking, and then left, his tightly locked brow almost screwed into a ball as he walked out. He clenched his fists, which were hanging on the sides of his body, as he walked, his heart already anxiously on the verge of going mad. Because looking like this, it's impossible to find Tae Phi for a while.

Nic went back, his arm carved with tattoos, and his brother looked over at the doorway again.

"Come on out, Tiw."

"Thanks, brother." The one who came out was not well faced, with a distinct melancholy hanging over his face. Only to see him take a long, long sigh of gratitude to his own biological brother.

"Is that the brat? It's the same person you shredded for a year before."

"It's all over brother, don't you worry. Soon, your good brother, me, will be back to normal. I promise, I'll go back to class next week." Seeing his brother's drooping eyebrows, Tae hurried to force a smile. However, the dimples of the old days did not come as expected, as if his happiness had left with the one who had walked out of the house just now. The brother shook his head and turned to continue pampering his lovely car, while speaking unhurriedly...

"If he had really ended things, he wouldn't be here for you."

That's because Nic he's a nice guy.

Tae said to himself darkly in his mind.



"You don't want me to find you, P’Tae! Don't let me find you!"

For a week now, the phrase had hung over Nic's mouth for the hundreds of times. But he still couldn't find the round-faced Phi, so he became irritable, anxious, and anxious inside, all of which felt like nothing he had ever experienced before. His cold heart, which never knew how to care for others, also began to become hysterical for each other.

Where have you been,Phi?

This disappearance of Tae made Nic acutely aware that if the other person didn't come forward to find himself... he wouldn't be able to find him no matter what.

P’Tae knew his schedule, and he himself knew nothing about P’Tae's schedule.

P’Tae knew what time he was going to be home, and he himself knew nothing about the time of P’Tae's dismissal.

P’Tae knows what he likes to eat, and he doesn't know the other person's preferences, because the other person keeps going along with his own preferences.

P’Tae knows his way around, but he... doesn't know much about everything about P’Tae.

Nic just knows... that P’Tae loves him... loves him enough to even grant him anything he asks... and that kind of love makes Nic start to realize how selfish he turned out to be.

"Where the hell have you been!!!!?”

In the end, the man who had always been good at controlling his emotions exploded out of the depression he had built up over the days, shouting towards the room while throwing the cushions into the air with one hand. It was only after venting that he leaned his head back on the bed and closed his eyes exhaustedly.

In previous relationships, he has handled them like a fish out of water. But the previous love experience came to be compared to P’Tae and they instantly became worthless and he had no idea what to do with it.

At first, he didn't like the other man, but the man still caught up with him and became his wife, that is, he planned to play games with the other man for fun and entertainment. But to his surprise, he became addicted, and by the time he started getting serious about the other person, the other person... disappeared from his life.

"Nong Nic, you shouted so much that I even heard you at the alley."

Nic heard the door open with a "squeak" and his brother's slightly tired voice drifted into his ears, but he didn't open his eyes.

"You leave me alone." Even if his brother had pulled P’Type over, he wasn't afraid now.

Hearing this, Techno sighed helplessly because... he had a heavy feeling of guilt in his heart!




Techno had just learned from his own coyote boyfriend that the oddly named nong had been with his own brother lover. Also, Techno's own coyote boyfriend has pushed the machinations on this one before, not knowing how many times he intervened. Techno is not sure if this is the reason for his brother's anger, but it is certain that...

""I have something to say to you.

"I said no...”

"It's about Nong Tae."

Silence

Nic opened his eyes quickly after hearing that, and looked at his brother with a serious look on his face, while Techno was picking up the pillow on the floor, a hint of embarrassment flashed across Nic's face.

"Do you remember the time last week when Tae came over to cook porridge and put it in the kitchen?"

"Remember."

"Well, I went and told him you weren't gay and that you threw away the flowers."

Nic hadn't lost his temper yet, he just felt puzzled and let his brother tell him what the two were talking about. Besides, these things weren't worth him being angry with his brother, except...

"What flowers?"

"The flowers you put there, who knew it was from Tae? So I told him you threw it away."

F8ck!

Nic cursed darkly in his mind, he wasn't cursing his brother, but himself. Since he didn't know the damn flowers were still in the house, he thought he didn't know where they had gone, so he forgot about it. Because he didn't think it mattered, who knew that his brother had taken it to plant it in a flower tray and put it in the yard?

"Wait, but that shouldn't be the main reason why he's avoiding me, either."

OK, if it was just about the flowers, P’Tae would probably just run over and tearfully ask if he didn't like the flowers he sent. As for P’No talking about the fact that he's not gay, so what, while it's true he's not gay, Tae is, as he said himself, a special person. Since both of them have already revealed their hearts, there is no reason for him to think so much about it, but... the other one is P’Tae, and his way of thinking is different from normal people.

As soon as he thought about it, P’Tae the kitty just didn't think like everyone else, Nic was starting to be less assured.

So, does he blame me for throwing away the flower? But if I go to him and explain it to him, I think he will understand.

Seeing his brother still agonizing over the matter, No had to shake his head helplessly as well, then turn his head towards the door.

"It's not just me, Kla has something to tell you too."

As soon as he heard Kla's name, Nic jerked his head up, his eyes staring straight at Kla, who was standing in the doorway, and Kla walked in with a serious look on his face... normally, he wouldn't be so serious if he wasn't lying.

"Where have you been?"

The old friend moved closer to Nic and handed him a note with just one line written on it... @TaeTiwson01.

"What the hell are you doing?"

"Before I have to tell you exactly what happened, first I want to give you P’Tae's Twitter account."

"What happened? What the f8ck have you done?"

Nic immediately stood up and stood face to face with his good friend, as if he was ready to reach out and grab Kla by the collar, but his brother was like a Muay Thai referee in the middle to separate the two, No saw that Nic's emotions had stabilized a little bit before he said in a voice a hundred times more serious than usual.

"You listen first, Nic... in this case, maybe Kla is at fault, but you also have a unshirkable responsibility."

Needless to say, Nic hadn't heard his brother's words, because, in his opinion, he hadn't done anything wrong at all.

"You b8tch Kla!"

Just thinking about the things that his good friend had told himself, Nic could hardly contain the anger in his heart. Especially when Kla talks about how he took Tae to eavesdrop on his conversation with the waitress sister, the anger value in his heart instantly reaches its peak, and he really wants to rush over and just throw a punch at the other guy like that. However his own brother was moving more quickly, and P’No had already pulled his arm in time and was yelling incessantly to calm himself.

Nic still couldn't calm down, and No had to give him a vigorous pat on the back of the head, trying to knock his sanity back.

'I'm not taking sides with Kla, but things wouldn't have come to this if you had outright rejected the sister at the time.'

The brother made a good point, so why didn't he reject her at the time?

Because he wanted to take a step back and pull away.

Nic also has his own explanation, sometimes he really hates himself and thinks so much about it.

In the beginning, he went to woo P’Tae because of the other's dorky nerdiness. When he started to poke fun at the other man, he thought it was fun again, so he planned to pass the time with him and fool around. It was in his heart that he thought it was all just a little time snacking, and he didn't think how long the relationship would last. Because according to his previous love experience, the so-called serious relationship, the last at most a month or two together, the longest and longest is only six months.

At first, he planned to find some fun to pass the time while he waited for his new girlfriend to show up. When that girl shows up, there are two paths before her.

The decision was to whether continue on this "detour" or take a step back to the previous "straightaway". Before it's too late.

You can have fun while you're studying, but at a certain age, it's time to start a family, which is Nic's plan for his life.

There is no doubt that boys have no place in "his big plan to start a family".

It's a happy, drunken life now, what about the future? There are two boys in the family, and the eldest son, who will never be able to escape being eaten by his best friend Kla. What if even he likes boys, what then? These concerns put Nic in a dilemma every day, whether to move on with a boy or to take a step back and be with a girl again. And at this point, the waitress came at just the right time.

"The answer to that question is so simple, you must be choosing girls!"

He has always chosen girls, so how can he change his base in the middle of the day and like boys?

However, this thought made his heart sourness inexplicably rise and ache, as if an invisible hand was rubbing his heart hard. By this time, the round face that often smiled at him, the budding face that was ready to howl every time he was bullied, was already lingering in his mind.




Why was a choice that seemed so simple, so difficult for him?

If Nic had chosen a girl... the other person would have cried himself to death, but the other person would have forced a smile and said it was okay, and then just sneaked off to the side by himself and cried himself to pearls.

Pop!

Nic raised his hands and slapped his head vigorously, the number of times this inability to make any decisive decisions had happened was countless to Nic.

Suddenly, Nic dropped his hands and slapped them haphazardly on himself and his trouser pockets, and only now did he remember that a friend had just given himself a piece of paper. Soon, the already crumpled note was in Nic's hands, and a line of writing on it was still clearly visible.

Without a second thought, Nic turned on his computer and typed in the letters according to the note, and eventually P’Tae's Twitter account was presented to him. At first Nic wasn't sure if it was P’Tae's account or not, because the avatar on it was a picture of a flower. And the thing that makes him so sure it's Tae's account is the signature under the avatar.

... Just a guy with a crush on Nong Nic...

A short sentence already makes it clear who the owner of this account is. The last status of this account really made Nic's ears perk up.

... I love you Nong Nic, thank you for always bringing me my good memories, and wish you happiness forever...

"What a crazy thing to say!"

Nic's eyes were on the verge of plastering themselves to the screen when he saw that the words were no different from those of goodbye. He felt his heart begin to beat violently and his abdomen began to swell a little, feeling like a piece of meat was missing from his body. Gradually, he began to find his breathing accelerating, panting heavily, and he had to grip his left chest tightly with his hand.

He really doesn't get it, is Tae breaking up with himself? Why write such words.

That's great, so you don't have to tell each other to break up, so you can get back on the "Straight path".

What the f8ck is "straight" about that!

Nic roared hysterically in his head, gripping the mouse tightly as he struggled to adjust his breathing and took a deep breath. He wondered what his friend must have been trying to tell him by giving him this piece of paper. So he decided to patiently slide the mouse down, which took quite a while, just to get to the state where it started.

Eventually, he saw it.

... I finally know my Prince Charming's name, Nong Nic, from the Pharmacy Faculty, oops, after all this time, I finally know his name...

The next one.

... I'm such an idiot. I've been going around and around. Everyone knows Nong Nic. I've been going around and around for a week...

The text was a bit of an embarrassment to Nic, who saw Tae laughing at his own stupidity as he continued to browse through the various messages on the screen, although there was no shortage of messages about Tae fighting with his friends. Most of the messages seem to be Tae talking to himself.

No, he wasn't talking to himself, this was like... a diary.

This web diary is telling the story of Nic's day-to-day, and... Tae's various feelings for Nic.

Every sentence is overflowing with Tae's fondness, no, his love, for Nic.

... Ran into Nong Nic on the subway today, but unfortunately, we were going in different directions...

... I ran into Nong Nic again, inside the subway station, he must have had a class this morning. Well, I'll have to take the subway early every day...

... Nong Nic is hugging a super big suitcase today, probably helping out with some college event, awesome...

Some states are long, some are short, and sometimes there are several in a row harping on the same thing in intermittent bursts. But it all made Nic involuntarily laugh out loud, and he felt like he was right there in the moment. He was listing the events that had happened over the year, one by one, in chronological order. At the same time, he also gradually realized that a certain boy had been humbly hiding in a dark corner, just to peek at himself.

An image came to Nic's mind: P’Tae must have been hiding somewhere, craning his neck in search of himself, and when Tae saw himself passing by, he burst out laughing with a red, pink smile on his face, then lowered his head and typed on his phone, indulging in his own fond fantasy. Anyway, at the thought of those images, Nic was already laughing uncontrollably.

It's so cute.

Nic slowly slid the mouse up to navigate the state until he noticed a small change in style. The guy who originally said he would be peeking at himself started saying he wasn't going to peek anymore and said how he was so happy inside when he knew Nic was gay. Tae brother also went on top of it, wanting to pursue Nic, wanting to slowly get closer to Nic, wanting to stand by Nic's side, just like those other girls.

... I got up at 5:00 a.m., made a box lunch with all my might, and if Nic wants to eat it, I'll buy a good tribute to the four land gods and roll around in the Faculty building to show you...

At that time, what did he think? It was good to avoid people and not to have too much interaction with them.

... I didn't see Nong Nic today, and I had to take the box home as is, but that's okay, there's tomorrow...

The other party had been up since five in the morning to make him a box lunch, but he had missed out on that good time for nothing.

Each state jogged his memory and Nic began to slowly discover that he was... a scum!

He has to get a good guy like Tae to chase after him, to get people to be obedient to him, to get people to find ways to get close to him, when in reality he's just a mediocre guy... he's worthy of being obsessed with.

Have I ever given so much to someone all this time? The answer to that question... no, not ever.

Now, Nic finally knows a piece of Tae's heart for himself... everything he's done before just to show his overbearing authority over the other person, but it reaps the other person full of happiness. Just holding hands, watching a movie, having a meal together can make the other person too happy to hold their own. So, the more Nic looked at it, the more his manly tears filled his eyes. Although the words on the screen were filled with happy emotions, he had a tapered pain in his heart whenever he thought about that last state.

Until he slips into that one again...

... I love you Nic, thank you for always bringing me my good memories, and wish you happiness forever...

The more he thought about how grief-stricken Tae was when he entered this state, the more uncontrollable his tears became on his face, while the hand that gripped his chest made it even harder. It felt as if someone was holding a fire poker to their chest. Just thinking about how much courage it took Tae to make that decision made Nic couldn't take it anymore.

He could no longer watch Tae shed a single tear.

Could this be the love like the one of legend?

Changed his brother's love, changed Kla's love.

It was the love that made him feel such a genuine affection... he wanted so badly to fight to protect this boy.

He never had this sad feeling when he broke up with someone else. But as soon as he thought about the fact that P’Tae was crying out in pain right now, he had an inexpressible grief.




Suddenly, Nic reached out to haphazardly wipe away the tears from his face, a determined glow in his eyes.

"It's all my fault, I was the one who was stupid for so long."

I was so stupid as to let the other person go for nothing.



“Ai’Tae... would you like some fried river noodles, I bought them especially for you."

“Ai’Tae... I'll go get you water, you don't have to get up."

“Ai’Tae... the group works for the elective, I'll do your part for you, you don't have to do it."

Tae felt that he must be in bad shape, because when he came back to class, every one of his friends acted super worried about him, and usually they all hate to tease themselves and rub their hair all the time, Tae had to laugh bitterly, and there was not much strength to play with those guys, as they do what they like. He ate when they bought themselves food, he drank when they bought water, and he thanked himself when he did his homework.

But... The smile of old is gone.

"Have fun!"

"I'm having fun, people!" Tae tried desperately to express his excitement, but the expression was... forced no matter how it looked.

"Don't be like that Tae, the sky's the limit, tell us which school nong you want."

"Ai’Ram!"

Tae couldn't figure out how these guys knew about themselves either, probably because of their tweets. They should have seen the last status of their post and guessed that they had broken up... oh, to have to go and formally propose a breakup with Nong Nic, but now they can't accept the fact for a moment.

Tae, who had just forced a smile on his face, immediately pulled his face down, drooping his head, as if his neck and shoulders were deflated. Those good friends are all lined up to pat Ram on the head, what were you talking about, you little brat! Can't you go through your head before you speak, can't you see how people are feeling before you speak?

"I'm really fine, don't worry."

"Hey, how can you not worry about it Ai’Tae! You’re a good friend of ours!"

"Thanks."

In the end, Tae still pretended to calmly forked a bite of fried river noodles and put it in his mouth, so as not to worry his friends too much. But he suddenly stopped his hand.

"That boy was so awesome just now, taking such a big bunch of roses to go and confess to a girl." Tae had to turn around, only to see a group of girls talking about what had just happened while walking into the cafeteria, so loud that even in a noisy cafeteria you could hear it clearly. It was all very commonplace, but as soon as he spoke of roses, he thought of the man who had also given roses to each other once.

It's none of my business. It's not...

"By the way, if I remember correctly, isn't that a student from Pharmacy Faculty, it seems that it's called... "

"Technic! Yes, yes, yes! That's what I remembered as Technic!"

Bang!

The fork and spoon in his hand fell to the plate and froze, while his three friends, with a curse in their hearts, gathered round.

"Why did you stop me from beating that kid up last time? What a scumbag!"

"I really shouldn't have let you get to know that guy!"

"You guys calm down first, maybe it's not the same thing as you think."

"What else to think, Ai’Waen, how can he do this to our Ai’Tae!"

Tae didn't listen to a word, his mind only flashed to the image of Nic walking side by side with a little girl.

Nic chose that girl, don't cry Ai’Tae, don't cry... didn't you already know this outcome?

"Don't let me see that guy again! Or I'll kick him all over the place!"

"Just cut off the love strings Ai’Tae, cut off the thoughts! That kind of scum doesn't deserve a good boy like you."




What his friends were saying, Tae couldn't hear a word, not a word, he could only feel a beeping in his ears, so nothing could be heard. Amidst a sea of cursing from friends, a familiar voice cut through the dry air and smoothly made its way into Tae's ears.

"Seniors, stop bad mouthing me in my wife's ear."

"!!!!"

Tae immediately rose from his chair and turned his head to look for the familiar source of the handful of voices. Eventually, he saw the man who had been in his soul, standing in front of him with a large bouquet of roses in his hand.

Tae looked at the roses in the other party's hands and didn't want to stay where he was, and didn't want to hear Nic break up with himself and say he wanted to be with that girl, Tae really didn't want to hear anything about that girl, so his body acted before his brain.

He ran!

Tae didn't know where he was going to run, he just turned around and pulled his leg as hard as he could and ran. If he hadn't heard the words below, he would have been glad that he had escaped the canteen.

"I love you P’Tae!!!!"

Both legs immediately went soft, and he turned around with a look of consternation. Then, he heard the other man shout again.

"I said I love you! Did you hear that, P’Tae!!!?”

Nope!!! What did Nong Nic just say?





~~ How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior ~~



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