How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior, Chapter 11. The Last message

How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior
How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior, Chapter 11. The Last message

"Then I'll go back first, you just talk to the nong."


It was a little embarrassing for Nic to have to talk to the waiter alone, but he didn't say anything. When the old friend returned, Nic was sitting there eating and playing with his cell phone, probably talking to his brother, and Kla was probably telling his brother things about himself as if they were jokes.

Forget about Kla for now! The first thing to do now is to think about what you should do first.

Nic let out a sigh of relief as he thought about it, clutching his hands to his chest while his eyes stared out the window at the delivery truck that was pulling up to the storefront, his mind also moving rapidly as he thought about what he should do.

If truth be told, this little sister waiter was also very much in his tastes. Although he hadn't seen the other for more than a month, the moment he saw the other's flower-like smile, shy demeanor, and sweet voice (not at all rough like a boy's), he also had an instant illusion. Because after all, he had liked girls before.

Nope, I still have a crush on girls right now, it's just that Tae is the exception.

And what kind of response should I give?

Nic wasn't a very narcissistic type of person, but he'd been in this situation several times, so he could guess what was going to happen. Although he also had some doubts in his mind as to why the other party would still be interested in someone like himself. Should have thought he was bent, Nic thought of that and stood up to wait.

"Phi, sorry to keep you waiting, I have to wait for the manager's permission before I can come over."

"It's okay." When she heard the other party say hello to himself, Nic immediately responded, looking at the little girl in front of his in a restaurant uniform, who was half walking and half running towards her. Nic saw the girl's face was flushed, which showed how hurried she was when she came over, and she couldn't help but feel a sense of pain in his heart.

Fair skinned, watery-eyed, smiling, dark hair, and then a look that makes you want to bully... every aspect fits perfectly.

"What do you want to see me about?"

"Uh... just... "

The little girl's face rose up red and quickly lowered his head, the fingers of his hands rubbing against each other tightly, Nic could also see that the other party was not faking all these actions, it seemed that this girl was really shy and shy. It also reminded Nic of someone who, whenever that person was shy, would also mouth off and say that they weren't shy.

The corners of Nic's mouth couldn't help but rise at the thought of this person, but this slight change in the expression made the little girl across from him even more nervous.

"It's been a while since you've been in the shop."

"I've been a little busy lately."

Who would dare to admit that they are avoiding each other because they can't save face?

"Is... is it? So will you still come to my shop?"

As soon as Nic heard this, he knew that the other person was trying to get in the way of words, so he decided to take the initiative and open the window to speak up.

"Is that what you're going to ask me?"

"No... Not really."

At the moment, the waiter's little sister's face was already reddening in the late autumn, and the blush of just now was long gone. But she still took a deep breath, as if she had gained the courage from Liang Jingru in the same place, and raised his head to meet Nic's eyes. She pursed her cherry little mouth first before she gently spoke the words out.

"Phi, are you with that boy? I'm sorry for asking you so presumptuously, you're... uh... "

"No, I'm not gay."

Yes, he wasn't lying, he wasn't, now he didn't think that way about boys, he only thought that way about Tae.





The girl took a long breath after hearing Nic's reply, then revealed a slightly reluctant smile, a flicker of hope in his eyes.

"Then why... "

"It's a long story." The tall Nic interrupted, he wasn't going to sit there and reveal himself to a stranger and tell him what was going on. If Sister had asked himself that a month ago, she would have had the patience to explain himself to the other party, and Nic's expression made the waiter Sister's face pale a little and took a deep breath, but finally, she made up his mind and asked for the exit.

"Just... I like you!"

"..." Nic didn't say a word, as he could already vaguely guess.

"Actually, whether you're... uh gay, or straight, I'm going to make my feelings about you known. In fact, I've known you since before you came to this shop, it's just that you probably don't remember me." The little girl muttered softly, not expecting Nic to remember himself either, she just wanted to tell each other.

"I used to work in another store and then was molested by a customer when you relieved me. I recognized you when you first walked into the store, and there were several times I wanted to ask if you remembered me, but I wasn't so sure. Then I saw you come every day and thought in my heart that I could at least see you every day. And then it came to the back... and you didn't come...” the waitress' little sister hung her head a few points lower than just now, and then prepared to spill out the feelings in her heart in a huff.

"When I saw you, I didn't want to miss this great opportunity again... I like you!"

That's weird! Why didn't I have any feelings for what she is talking about at all?

Nic asked himself in his mind while looking at the other's budding face, a hint of shyness surfaced on his face, and Nic recalled in his mind all the things that had happened between the sister and himself. However, his heart was rippling with no feeling, and on the contrary, there was more of a depression in his mind. Because the girl in front of his actually struggled to come and express himself.

After all, there's no better way to be with a girl than with a guy, and it's not too late to backtrack.

Nic's sanity said so to himself, but the seductively handsome face of a certain man burst into his heart.

'P’Nic.'

'P’Nic.'

'P’Nic, I've made you a good meal, it's all my specialty!'

Why did that guy's low voice easily defeat the sweet whisper of the girl across the street and break into his heart unguarded?

"I appreciate you having a good feeling about me, but... "

"I also know it's presumptuous of me to say so and disturb you, but don't be so quick to reject me first, in fact... why don't you go back and think about it first."

Nic was not yet finished, but the other party interjected, her voice with a slight tremor, and his eyes were already moist.

"Is it okay if you go back and think about it first? Don't be so quick to turn me down just yet. At least... we can get to know each other a little better first."

In fact, Nic was able to reject the other party with a single stroke of the heart, but a nerve in his brain held him down in time.

The thought in the mind was... it was not too late for him to return to his old life.

No matter how much this society has opened up, but boys don't have any future with boys like they do with girls. Besides, he wasn't born with a crush on boys.

Is it time for me to pull away?



F8ck Nic!

This was the one sentence that Kla cursed in his mind at this point, while at the same time a wave of unbelievable anger grew in his heart... anger for the one across from him who didn't say a word.

That's right, Kla didn't go anywhere, he just went out and picked someone up. Now, on the other side of the wall stood a boy.

The man standing there was... Tae.

It all started at the restaurant. At the time, Kla was also keen to stay and gossip, but his phone suddenly rang and it turned out to be a message. He opened it and looked at it, only to realize that it turned out to be the male ticket of an old friend and hadn't talked to each other much lately.

Kla was also fanning the flames when Tae courted Nic earlier. He also tipped off the news, telling Tae what Nic liked and hated, and telling Tae when and where Nic would show up, so Tae would respond accurately and to the point. By the time the two of them really got together in the back, the Gold Iceman was out of history. So when he saw that Tae had suddenly sent him a message, he couldn't help but have a hint of doubt in his mind, plus he saw the other party say...

... I have something to ask you. Is it okay to come out and meet...





When Kla asked the other where it was, Tae said it was nearby. So Kla called him over.

How could I have been so confident in my old friend at that time?

The star of the College of Pharmacy did not intend to make a fool of his friend, although sometimes he saw his friend full of spring and stopping chasing skirts, while he did not have a wife to hug in his arms, he was also a little unimpressed. But he's also very confident, and since Nic is already full of happiness, it means he's made up his mind to be with the nerdy P’Tae. So, Kla went and picked up Tae, still intending to stand aside and listen. He is also sure his friend will say that when the time comes... sorry, I already have a date.

Yet it is in fact he said.

"I'll think about it."

The answer to that question was so stupid that Kla the best friend was so confused.

Didn't you still say you're happy? Also bragged to me all day about being super happy with Tae. Then why don't you just say no!!!

Perhaps Kla had forgotten that he himself was the kind of big talker who was serious about love and would chase after someone once he liked them. So sometimes he forgets that maybe other people don't think the same way as he does.

Obviously, this time around Nic didn't follow the formula that Kla had in mind either. In Kla's imagination, Nic will definitely reject the girl on the spot, and then Tae will be immediately red in the face, and then emerge to hold Nic tightly, and as for himself, he will immediately run over and hold up his phone to help them click and click a few photos, and then "threaten" them both with photos. However, at this moment, he saw that Tae's eyes were filled with tears of anguish, and the tears were churning in his eyes, threatening to break the bank at any moment.

Instead of going out to find his boyfriend, Tae turned around and walked in the other direction.

"Wait a minute, P’Tae, I'm sorry, I didn't think, he actually meant to say that."

Kla hurriedly shouted, spilling his thoughts. It wasn't that he was passing the buck, but that he really didn't expect it to happen.

"No... It’s okay, I just had something I wanted to ask."

Every time he saw P’Tae purse his lips, Kla was tempted to bully him a little. But when he sees Tae in a raw, unlovable state, Kla feels so hard inside that he feels so sorry for Tae that he wants to punch himself in the face.

"What do you want to ask?" Kla instantly got serious.

"P’Nic, he isn't gay? All this time it's been girls he's liked, and all those rumors before that were a misunderstanding... right?"

The answer to that question made it difficult for Kla to speak. Because all along he's played a kind of pushover role in this as well. Kla shed a few slow, unconscious nods of his head as he saw the man in front of him, who always liked to put a smile on his lips, shed a tear.

"Well, Nic isn't gay, much less a so-called wife likes girls, and the previous rumors were just rumors, not true."

Ah!

Tae let the tears flow on his face, then quickly dropped his head and hurriedly wiped them away with the back of his hand.

"So all this time... it was all wishful thinking on my part, wasn't it... the reason he agreed to stay with me was also just out of sympathy for me."

"It's not like that, P’Tae. Maybe he didn't like boys before, but he's really into you now, a thousand times over!"

Kla hurried to defend his friend while the other gritted his teeth and shook his head slowly, wiping the tears from his face with the back of his hand back and forth. This action, no matter in whose eyes, seems so pitiful and heart wrenching.

Now standing before him was a boy, but this boy was much softer than his P’No.

If that had happened, P’No would probably have cussed, and this boy across the street would have just cried and blamed himself all the time, saying it was all his fault.

"I really shouldn't have done that ah... sorry ah Kla... sorry for wasting so much of your time, I'm going back."

Kla rushed to grab the other's hand before letting the other back in, then decisively.

"You need to be clear with Ai’Nic."

"But I just want to go home." Tae said vaguely with a sobbing voice, like a small child.

"Then I'll take you back."

Kla was eager to make amends for his friend, but what else could he say on the matter? It turned out that he didn't know his friend as well as he thought he did, and Kla was now speaking with caution, not daring to make things worse by talking nonsense. But he couldn't let Tae go home alone either, Tae was in such a state that he didn't know which corner he would run to and hide in by then. At the very least, he has to do his part to take care of his old friend's lover.

I really hope, Nic that you don't hurt this guy who can bring you endless happiness by a single thought.

Senior Tae loves Nic, this has been going on for a year, a whole school year. So someone raised the question, you've liked someone for almost a year, how did you only start getting into each other's lives now?

The reason for all of this comes from Tae's own scruples, and the answer to that question is... because Nic doesn't like boys.

That reason alone had already made Tae afraid to dress up for a chance meeting on Nic's way to and from class. Because he was afraid that if Nic found out how he felt about himself, he would develop a grudge against him. But that's not the biggest reason, and the most important one is, aren't guys supposed to be with girls?

Despite the fact that the two don't seem to have any chance, and despite the fact that they don't seem to have any hope, a little success makes Nic turn around and notice him instead of a girl, and Nic gives up the chance to be a normal straight guy, and Tae takes Nic down this "detour", but he's not very happy about it.

That's why Tae was so unconcerned about shouting and screaming when he learned that Nic had a crush on boys, and ended up upsetting his friends.

If Nic likes boys, doesn't that give him a chance? That way he doesn't feel a sense of guilt filled for breaking a straight man.

When Nic's brother and a girl stand together, this picture can simply be described as a "talented girl"... simply a match made in heaven, the general public will see the dark appreciation in their hearts... Tae should also express a sense of relief, rather than... heartache.

While one's feelings can be strong when secretly in love with someone, it's not meant to put a strain on the other person. Whenever he sees the other person laughing, he laughs with them; when he sees the other person sad, he follows the sadness; when he sees the other person walking with someone else, and he has a feeling of grief mixed with jealousy in his heart. But this is not the so-called "jealousy", because he knows that he does not have the qualification, only the boyfriend of the other party has the qualification to be jealous.

The difference in these feelings is more than Tae can imagine.

He has felt the other's warm windy smile, he has heard each other's soft voice, he has touched each other's warm spring-like palm... even each other's warm embrace, was also once his own. It was because he had felt them before that he knew deeply how valuable they were to him, how much they meant to him. So, when he thought that these things no longer belonged to him... a sharp pain came over him.

A mere crush is a very different kind of feeling from having ever felt such love.




Today, Tae finally learned that it had been wishful thinking all along, Nic didn't like boys, he was only interested in girls, and Nong Nic and the little girl standing across from him were the real golden couple. And as for him... it was all just a self-imagined misunderstanding.

It all started when he started out stalking Nic like crazy, and then he accidentally broke into Nic's life, and Nic was a good boy too, to take responsibility for himself and be his own boyfriend.

Is Nic's brother kind-hearted... of course, he is. Although many people say Nic is a scary boy with no facial expression and no desire to laugh, he doesn't care about that. Because Tae had already experienced Nic's goodness deeply, and he had seen it and felt it firsthand.

Nong Nic is a super kind boy. No matter how bored he is, he will not scold him or look at him with an ire look. For Nong Nic's intentional proximity, although Nic has dissatisfaction in his heart, Nong Nic will also explain to him patiently, hoping that he can understand. Nong Nic never wastes his kindness, nor hurts his weak heart. When the two are close enough, no matter how shy they are, the other person will not even dismiss himself once, on the contrary... Nong Nic always smiles at himself.

Nic really has a good heart, better than anyone else, the others didn't see it, but I could see it all.

He's been aware of this since last year.

Tae thought about it and opened the drawer of his desk. It was stuffed with objects related to Nic, then he pulled out a book and opened the title page, whereupon he saw... folded dried flowers and a photograph.

In this photo... the day the two met.

Tae had told Techno that he had known Nic before he had known Kla, and that was exactly what had happened.

On the day of freshman boot camp, all the freshmen were present and there was a great commotion while the rest of the year was busy preparing for the event. Tae was late, so he decided to run away and move on to his Phi year anyway. With so many helpers on the scene, it shouldn't be a big problem to lack him by that much. So he found a secluded spot and tried to doze off for a while. But as he rounded the other side of the Faculty building, he met his... destiny.

No, not the little girl who spilled the papers in his hands, but another big legged little handsome guy who ran up to help the little girl.

'Are you okay?'

'Nothing, but I have to rush to the freshman camp.'

At the time, Tae didn't know why he didn't run over to help, he just stayed where he was and watched the scene before him. Only to see the nong agilely gather up the papers on the floor, then hitch the back strap of his school bag on his shoulder, then turn around and bend over.

'You ride on my back and I'll take you there.'

'But... '

'Let me give you a lift or you won't make it, your feet still hurt and you won't be able to run fast.'

Tae is not aware of his surroundings but only sneaks up behind her. He saw that the nong’s gasping rate had accelerated and that the school shirt was already oozing a little sweat print, but the other party still insisted on getting the girl to his destination. At this point, Tae couldn't help but pick up his phone and take a picture.

The image that appeared before his eyes at that time was of a wind like a teenager running wildly towards his faculty, and above Tae's head, several flowers were leaving the branches and whirling down with the wind, forming a beautiful part of this image. This beautiful sight made Tae's heart begin to tremble incredibly, and he had to raise his hand and let the flower drift down into his palm.

This pink flower had been planted all over campus, and the one that had fallen into the palm had been carefully dried by Tae and sandwiched on the front page of this book.

It was the first object in his collection that related to Nong Nic, and since then his collection has grown.

That day, he was truly stunned by the scene before him, and he didn't even want to take his eyes off of that nong. From then on, he went around asking who this Nong really was based on this side of the fence. When he found out, he would run to his family's college every now and then to take a peek. Although Nic doesn't know exactly who he is, and Nic is always surrounded by beautiful women. Eventually, Tae decided to put the other down.

There should be no hope for him, Nic would be better off with a girl. Being able to look at and admire each other from a distance was enough to satisfy his heart.

"Then... then why ah Ai’Tae... why are you crying... why are you weeping!" Tears irretrievably snatched from the edges of the eyes, flowed down the cheeks, converged on their own chin, and finally dripped down onto the paper of the book, where they fell just centimeters from the dried flowers.

Why was his heart so grieved now?

The image of Nic standing with the girl was still lingering in his mind, and all along he had found it beautiful and admirable.

"Don't cry... don't cry! Don't let Nic feel its difficult... don't... Oooh."

Tae tried hard to tell himself not to cry, but the tears still couldn't stop flowing down, instead, the frequency of the tears falling accelerated and she couldn't help himself. So he had to raise his hands to cover his face, choking so hard that he couldn't speak anymore, and his body was constantly twitching.

If Nic likes girls, he should be with girls, not with boys like him.

Don't get in Nic’s way.

Tae kept mumbling the phrase under his breath, repeating it over and over to himself. If he became a burden in the other person's life, he would have preferred that none of this had happened. If he causes the other to be unable to make a right choice, he would rather the two never know each other. He just wants to see his crush live happily ever after. In the month they've been together, he's also seen each other laughing and he once thought he was the one who could bring happiness to the other, but... wouldn't it be nice if Nic's other half was a cute little girl? At least, not a tall, clumsy boy who wanted him to be. When two guys walk side by side in the street like this, they're inevitably called "f8ggots".

"I'm going to tell Nong Nic... I'm going to... break... Oooh."

However, the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't stop his tears. There was a wetness in his hands and he finally realized how much he really loved each other. But he cannot use the goodness of the other to satisfy his own selfish desires.

Based on what she had known about Nic for a long time, Tae was well aware that although Nic was never without a girlfriend around, Nic would never initiate a breakup with a girl, and Nic would wait for the other person to talk first. So should he, and should initiate the breakup.

Let him go and meet someone more suitable.

At this point, if a friend happened to hear this idea of his, he would surely scold him for having gutter oil in his head. But he likes Nic so much that he can't bear to put him behind bars, leaving him on the receiving end of a storm of criticism for reluctantly staying with himself. In fact, he knew that Nic didn't like himself at all.

No had once said that Nic didn't care who the owner of the bouquet was, and the implication was... Nic didn't like him at all.

Besides, Nic must have picked the little girl.

"Oooh...” was all Tae could do, clutching the book tightly in his arms and letting his teardrops fall in large drops on the book. After a moment, he closed his eyes, as if calling out to the courage within, but the courage did not come out. His mind only drifted back to the fond memories of the two over the past month, to every warm hearted word Nic had ever said to himself, and even to the feeling of Nic holding him tightly in his arms. Nic hugged himself and whispered his name in his ear... Nic also mischievously brought the tip of his nose closer to the dimples that appeared on his face as he smiled.

Nic once said he was cute.

"Now... I'm... not... cute at all."

Dimples only came out when he was smiling, but now he was so sad he didn't know how to raise the corners of his mouth. How could he smile in this mood, how could he ever show that smile that Nic liked again?

It's finally over, the sweet, beautiful dream it's been for a month.




Thinking about it, Tae picked up his phone and turned on the software that would let him vent. Then he looked at those statuses on the software that he had posted to a particular person that year himself. He skimmed through those states without knowing whether minutes or hours had passed. When he slid to the last state and saw the picture above with the porridge pot...

Ta da... the tears were already dripping relentlessly on the screen of the phone, his fingertips already trembling as he typed messages into the phone.

"Woo... woo...“ Was already choking in his throat when Tae hit the blue release button.

The last message he posted on this software.

TaeTiwson01: I love you Nic, thank you for all the good times we have had together and wish you happiness.

This one last message brought Tae to tears.





~~ How to Change: The Love Tactics of an Innocent Senior ~~



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