HIStory3: Make Our Days Count《HIstory 3: 那一天》History 3: That Day
HIStory3: Make Our Days Count, Chapter 4: The Bully Who Love Me... Sun Bo Xiang Courage Paying Off
Xiang Hao Ting will go all out once he decides to do something.
From the unilateral declaration of "like you", he was very active. The next day, he even took two lunches and waited in the health room to eat with Yu Xi Gu.
"Wanna eat before you go to bed? Come here, let’s eat together." He said with a smile, when he saw Yu Xi Gu didn't respond, he walked towards him, and when he grasped his wrist, he could not help frowning: “I really can't understand why you are so thin? Do you want to lose weight?"
Yu Xi Gu just silently shook off his hand.
"You don't have to worry. The way I pursue my girlfriend is always... Girlfriend? Boyfriend... Ah! No matter! Anyway, I will let you feel my sincereness.“
“Don't talk nonsense anymore. What do you want?" Yu Xi Gu asked with a frown.
“I didn't say it very clearly yesterday. I want to go out with you!"
Even if he is sincere enough, but he has a lot of criminal record, this kind of declaration felt like only the beginning of another prank in the ears of interested people. Yu Xi Gu has already been exhausted by these tricks, holding his fist and shouting loudly: "You... Don’t joke and prank me anymore.”
“I really want to go out with you." Xiang Hao Ting continued to reiterate.
"Are you a man or not? I've already expressed my willingness to apologize. Can’t we leave it at that?" Yu Xi Gu even called back with his words before tasting himself, which was very loud.
“I'm very simple."
Xiang Hao Ting smile gradually lost its shine. He doesn't know why he used to chase girls in the past with easy but with this one he was hitting a wall. He was forced to squeeze the Bento food pack into the trembling hand just after smiling. Then he left quietly. His eyes were full of loss and hurt.
But Yu Xi Gu didn't see it. He was still in fear and anxious, unable to calm down.
Xiang Hao Ting went to the roof in silence, took Sun Bo Xiang out of a group of friends, grabbed him by the shoulder incoherently and asked, “Sun Bo, what can I do? What can I do to make him believe me a little more? What can I do?"
Sun Bo Xiang also has his own troubles. He impatiently said they should not talk about it here, but unexpectedly Xiang Hao Ting said directly: “Don't you like your uncle so much? Don't you love him or not..."
“You idiot!" Sun Bo Xiang got furious instantly.
He didn't expect to be forced out of the closet, or because his friend's pursuit of Yu Xi Gu was not successful his own on Lu Zhi gang coming out in the open, Sun Bo Xiang rolled his eyes and turned to the horizon. How could he act as his spiritual mentor now?
"There is no guarantee for love between the same sex, so it's very important to be sincere. If you don't impress him, why does he have to like you because how are you different from the others? You are too naive!"
However, it seems that he is full of potential. It's very easy to say that.... But Sun Bo Xiang was complacent. His mobile phone suddenly showed a message. Clicked it to see made him almost vomit blood.
It's Sun Wen Jie. He sent a picture of Lu Zhi Gang's left arm which was injured. The injured man's back was facing the camera. It's obviously a shot taken secretly. He angrily called Sun Wen Jie and immediately asked what happened. “Didn't you see the picture?”
“How could you hurt him?" Sun Bo Xiang asked in agony.
Sun Wen Jie only said that he had done emergency treatment and the injury was not serious. He asked him not to worry about it, but also reminded him not to forget this weekend when he was coming to work for his shift.
Sun Bo Xiang was struggling at this time. He is worried about Lu Zhi Gang injury, but even if is worried about it he is scared to see him. After pulling for several times, he suddenly remembers what he encouraged Xiang Hao himself this afternoon. At that time, it sounded so powerful and full of bravely.
"Even if there is no hope at all, let them know that you really have love in your heart. Come on!"
He thought he couldn't lose to that guy, so he made up his mind in silence.
Because Yu Xi Gu has a new job which he got through Lu Zhi Gang, the coffee shop has to recruit new staff. When Sun Bo Xiang arrived, Lu Zhi Gang was teaching new staff some basic things. When Lu Zhi gang saw him, he was stunned and embarrassed. Finally, Sun Bo Xiang was more active.
"Are you free? I want to talk to you." He said that and the two moved to the empty lounge.
Lu Zhi Gang, as a passive party, can only wait in silence, watching Sun Bo Xiang walking back and forth in front of his eyes, as if he was mulling about something, wanting to talk and shout back several times, he looked especially aggrieved and struggling, but he has a kind of... The other boy was a really lovely illusion.
“So you came to me today to tell me about the last time you kissed me?"
Sun Bo Xiang's silence was the answer. His hesitant and withdrawn eyes look like "regret" to the other man. A few days ago, his own words came to my mind. Children of this age are always three minutes hot and impulsive. At that time, maybe he was just a boy who wanted to appease himself now facing the other man.
“It's OK! I didn't take it seriously. Don't worry about it." He thought that Sun Bo Xiang had regretted it but didn't know how to say it. He thought that since he was an adult, so he took the initiative to comfort him.
Unexpectedly, Sun Bo Xiang suddenly raised his face to look at the other man after listening, “Didn’t take it seriously" ignited him like a torch. No one can bear to be stared at with such directness and without concealment, especially Lu Zhi Gang, who was afraid of being burned by the kid enthusiasm.
“I like you." When Sun Bo Xiang said this, his eyes were firm and determined.
Lu Zhi Gang's response to this confession is that his eyes were losing focus gradually, and he can't help but sigh that the other side is always a much braver boy than he was.
The young boy didn't flinch. The reason why he could get along well with Xiang Hao Ting. One of the things is that they have a similar temperament. Once they decide something, they won't flinch and will try to fight for it.
“I'm not on doing this on a whim." He stressed, "It was since I started going to my brother's gym and saw you for the first time, I like you. I have loved you for... 473 days. "
473 days. Lu Zhi Gang didn't dare to respond. He knew that Sun Bo Xiang was definitely not doing this on a whim just with such clear numbers.
"And when I got to know you slowly, I'm sure I like you. I saw you in a man's car that day. You were so close. Since you can accept being with men, give me a chance. I really want to be with you."
Lu Zhi Gang finally couldn't help smiling, but he smiled bitterly. He thought that the child was really young. “I believe that you like me, but what about later would you still do?”
“I will!" said Sun Bo Xiang stubbornly. “Do you like me?"
“Who wouldn't like you?" he put his hand on the neck of the other man and gently rubbed it. It was very soothing. "You're so cute and handsome, and you have a good personality. Of course I like you."
Sun Bo Xiang was acutely aware that he was being coaxed like a child, he immediately took off his hand and frowned, “I mean the kind of love like."
Lu Zhi Gang felt helpless, especially when the words “I want to be with you forever" burst into his ears.
Forever? How long has it been since he heard these two words? He used to talk about them in his heart, but at last, all the people who told him these words left one by one, leaving him alone to keep "forever". At last... He also had put care into these two words.
"Forever... You're really too young... You're in high school. Do you know what forever is?" he put it down not because he didn't believe, but because he didn't have the courage to believe again.
“I know.”
“Can you guarantee that you will like boys all your life?”
“Yes.”
“What if you wake up and find that you like the female teacher in your class or the male student in the next class?”
“Absolutely not.”
“I was the same when I was your age." Lu Zhi Gang looked at him with a wry smile.
"You can’t use age as leverage to stop me! What's the relationship between liking someone and age?" Sun Bo Xiang only felt hurt. This kind of questioning words will be laughed off by anyone, Lu Zhi Gang is the only exception who didn't laugh.
"Of course, but you can't understand it now. Because time and reality exist. In the future, you will meet some people and meet some things. Their selfishness will make you gradually understand that there is no forever in the world. So, please don't say forever, will you?"
Lu Zhi Gang's face, which always has a doting smile, looked seldom this bitter and sad. Anyone will not give up when he looked at it. What's more, Sun Bo Xiang, who has always liked him, is almost feeling "tight heart" with tears in his eyes.
“But I'm different from them!" Sun Bo Xiang was very unconvinced. He didn't allow his mood to be validated, and the validation was fragmented and deviated from the truth.
"You can say I'm young or I don't understand, but you can't say I can't love someone forever. I don't care if you are a boy or a girl. My body tells me that I want you! "
Lu Zhi Gang found that his throat was so dry that he could hardly speak. What he wanted to say was like a fire. In his eyes, this man...
The child's eyes were shining, so dazzling that he could only say "No way" and ran away. This kind of too hot, pure emotion makes him afraid, he is afraid... He will believe in "forever" again.
Sun Bo Xiang watched him walk away, his heart was feeling bitter.
He knew that Lu Zhi Gang must have had hurt him. He was already the owner of a shop. The life experience of a student could not be compared to him at all, but he was rejected like this... He only felt particularly hurt, because those things he mentioned were all unknown, which were extremely remote "possibilities" in the future. “Because of his fear and bad experience, he was completely rejected... He wasn't even the one who hurt Lu Zhi Gang
"Aargh... ..." he leaned his head on the iron cabinet, not letting the appearance or voice of crying appear to his face. He was so cowardly that he didn't even know what to do to make things get better. It was like a dead end, in which he could not escape. He was in great pain.
At night, Xiang Hao Ting hid in the dark of the column, which was a place where he was not found by Yu Xi Gu who rushed down from the upstairs. Where is he going when it's this late? Xiang Hao Ting was full of doubts and hurried to catch up.
Earlier, he was encouraged by Sun Bo Xiang and decided to let the other boy feel his sincereness, so he bought a new Bento and threatened Yu Xi Gu with the way of "You don't eat, I'll kiss you".
It was really exhausting. Fortunately, the Bento finally was accepted.
Xiang Hao Ting was very satisfied, because last time Yu Xi Gu still yelled at him, this time he didn't. When he went home, he ad the cheekiness to go together and even proposed that he would like to come to Yu Xi Gu apartment to review together tomorrow.
His idea is very simple, he wants to get along with Yu Xi Gu some more, always check to see the usual invisible advantages, in the past this move is always effective. This time, Yu Xi Gu didn't resist him violently, but kept checking his watch frequently. Xiang Hao Ting thought he was in a hurry to review.
After sending him upstairs, he saw that the light in the room was on when he had a self-examination about meeting downstairs, but it soon went dark again.
So fast to sleep? He thought it was wrong, so he went to hide. It wasn't long before Yu Xi Gu rushed downstairs to look at his watch and ran away. It seemed that he was late for his appointment. The strangest thing was that he took a bus.
Xiang Hao Ting followed along, hiding very hard. Fortunately, Yu Xi Gu looked out of the window frequently, but he didn't find that he was being followed. After getting off the bus, he also walked forward and disappeared at the end of a ladder. Xiang Hao Ting dare not venture forward, he slowed down to carefully observe the appearance and decoration of the building, plus the striking “Drunk safely" neon light, he judged that this is a place where alcohol, indulgence and night pleasures are sold.
“What's he doing here?" Yu Xi Gu doesn't look like a man who can run and lie in a bar. Xiang Hao Ting can't figure it out.
He walked into the building, the dim lights, the people who were happily holding the wine glasses and talking and drinking, and the music which was easy and even a little confusing. There was no doubt that it was a bar. Looking at the young people, the place was filled with liveliness.... Moreover, all of them were men, and even some couple had been kissing wildly at the door.
What is Yu Xi Gu doing here? Xiang Hao Ting frowned.
On the first day of work, on top of being a little late, Yu Xi Gu was very nervous. At the request of Lu Zhi Gang, John, who was in charge of taking him, thought that the child was really green with worry so he said, “Don't be nervous, just distribute food and wine. If there is anything you can come and ask me at any time."
His bar is a decent business, and employees are strictly prohibited from doing illegal business in private. It is because of this that Lu Zhi Gang is relieved to let the boy come to work part-time here. John also tried to make an attempt to gain Lu Zhi Gang's favour, so he told the staff earlier and asked them to take care of the newcomer.
"OK." John could not help laughing when he saw that Yu Xi Gu was still nervous. He could only pat him on the shoulder to encourage him. When he wanted to say something more, he suddenly heard a noise.
He thought that someone was making a fracas and he wanted to see what the situation was about. Unexpectedly, when he turned around, he saw a boy in uniform grabbing the collar of his waiter. Another man desperately hugged the boy and tried to separate them, but the effect was not good.
When the student saw Yu Xi Gu, he immediately shifted his target. When John was in the middle, he pushed him aside. Even when he saw Yu Xi Gu in the waiter's clothes, he lost his mind and shouted "Follow me!" then he grabbed the other's hand and pulled it in the opposite direction.
"Let him go!" John didn't know what the relationship between them was, but Yu Xi Gu was obviously not very happy to follow, which was enough for him to stop. “What can I do for you, sir?"
He reached out and pressed on Xiang Hao Ting's shoulder and folded his five fingers, trying to calm him down with a small action of half pressing and half covering. However, Xiang Hao Ting didn't get his intention at all. Instead, he took this action as a provocation and quickly punched him directly in the face.
The punch was as strong as he could muster. Even if the man was on guard, he fell back. The two waiters reacted quickly and rushed up to hold him in the scream. Yu Xi Gu was so scared by this development that he forgot to struggle. In this way, Xiang Hao Ting dragged him out to the two main roads.
A series of developments were unexpected for Yu Xi Gu. He just thought that this job had brought trouble to the boss at the starting dat. He was angry and heartbroken. After being pulled out, he was so stubborn that he turned his back on Xiang Hao Ting and refused to say a word.
Xiang Hao Ting thought that he was crying and had no place to vent his anger, so he turned around and scolded Yu Xi Gu.
“What do you cry about? Do you know what it is? What's your problem that you think can be solved by you working here? What would you do in case of being seen by someone, surrounded by strange guests, or infected with bad habits?" his worry and tension are wrapped in anger, which makes it hard to distinguish.
When he finished yelling, he vented out his emotions and calmed down. “Why would you rather take risks to work here?" the doubt flashed through his mind, but there was no time for him to think about it, and Yu Xi Gu could not bear and started to yell at him again.
“What's wrong with you!" he suddenly put down his arm, with no tears in his eyes, his eyes were more frightening than tears.
Xiang Hao Ting was shocked by his present appearance, he was unable to give up any excuses, he was confused like a child who thought he had done a good deed but was scolded for.
His puzzled expression in Yu Xi Gu's eyes has become a fool. He can bear it once or twice, but he has been beaten up again and again leading make a bad life arrangement. The person with the best temper will get angry. In recent days, Xiang Hao Ting's abnormality was connected with the current situation, and Yu Xi Gu immediately came to a conclusion.
“I knew you were waiting for a chance to mess with me. You were waiting for this opportunity to destroy all my efforts... Xiang Hao Ting, I beg you to let me go! Don't mess with me anymore! What do you want me to do to make you feel happy and satisfied? Is it kneeling down?"
Before Xiang Hao Ting answered, Yu Xi Gu immediately knelt down. In order to finish high school, he didn't feel ashamed to kneel.
“I'm sorry! I really can't play the leading role in your game. I don't have money. I know I'm different from you. I need to make money very much. If I don't get the scholarship, I can't pay my tuition next semester. Can you let me off this time?" Yu Xi Gu basically said what he thought at that moment. These days, the uneasiness, fear, helplessness and fear he felt were all spewed out in words, which seems disorderly, unorganized, but extremely real. He had a smile on his face, but... It gave Xiang Hao Ting a very familiar feeling. It was the feeling he felt when he made him miss the mid-term exam.
He couldn't say a word. He wanted to refute that he didn't want to mess with him, but... Even if he didn't, how would Yu Xi Gu get it?
There must be different opinions about the perpetrators and the victims, but there is no doubt about what Xiang Hao Ting is now - he is the one who should check his behaviours, because he made this person cry again.
The first time he made him cry, it was revenge that messed up his mid-term exam.
He wanted to make up for it, to care for him, to make everything better, but even when he tried so hard, Yu Xi Gu still cried. This time, he knelt down in front of him and cried bitterly, begging Xiang Hao Ting to forgive him. He who just wanted to care about a person, how can it be like this. Xiang Hao Ting’s heart felt so tight and painful that the familiar feeling came back stronger and stronger than the last time.
"Yu Xi Gu!" Xiang Hao Ting crouched down with a roar and clasped his hand on the other side's shoulder to pull him up, but Yu Xi Gu was so powerful at this time that he kept pulling away his hands and making him kneel unsteadily to the ground!
"You get up, I didn't want to mess with you!" roared Xiang Hao Ting.
"You're trying to teach me a lesson!" Yu Xi Gu roared back, not to be outdone. “Because of you, my mid-term exam results may affect my scholarship application, so I can't pay my tuition next semester. After a while, Brother Zhi Gang efforts to help me to get the job to earn money, are destroyed by you..." he knelt on the ground, shivering not because of the cold, but because of the panic caused by Xiang Hao Ting's actions.
“Do you know it's a bar? How many complicated people come in and out of this place? What should you do in case of being stared at by strange guests? If someone forces you to open a room with him, can you refuse? If someone follows you home and knows where you live and annoys you every day, don't study hard? You don't need to go to such a place for lack of money. Do you know how worried I am?"
"No need!" Yu Xi Gu suddenly lost his mind and pushed forward. Xiang Hao Ting was frightened by his emotional outburst. His knee, which was still in the air, fell heavily to the ground, causing him to wail with pain, but his whine was immediately covered by Yu Xi Gu's roar, and when he raised his face, he saw that he was standing in front of him, because the angle of the street lamp was just backlight, and he could not see the expression clearly
"Can you put away your conceit?" Yu Xi Gu asked grudgingly. “Brother Zhi Gang said its safe here, and the boss will take care of me. I won't stay late. Even if I do, I don't need you to run over and make trouble because of your worry! "
He was as desperate as he could bear for a long time and finally find an opportunity to break out. Every word was like a stab to Xiang Hao Ting, who was stabbed all over his body. He tried to explain, but found that he had no other reason than “Worry".
"Can you let me go? Please, stay away from me. Don't use" worry about me "as an excuse to mess with me. I can live well without your worry."
"Yu Xi Gu.... I'm worried about you. I don't want you to be in danger in such a place." He explained weakly.
“I won't be in danger, you stay away from me, don't be arrogant, I will be safe." This sentence is definitely the one who broke Xiang Hao Ting tonight, because he was totally disgusted.
Now their posture was reversed. Yu Xi Gu stood and Xiang Hao Ting knelt down. The former trembles with anger, while the latter is at a loss
“But I just want to...”
“Do you want me to kneel? Do I need to kneel again to show you? So you are willing to let me go?”
“No!" Xiang Hao Ting looks up abruptly.
Yu Xi Gu was shocked by his sharp eyes, but in order to live a stable life, he told himself that he could not shrink back and looked back bravely.
“I'm really just worried about you, because I like you and I'm afraid you'll come here and end up in an accident. I'm sorry that I hit your boss impulsively. If your work is lost, I will take responsibility... "
"No need." His voice is extremely helpless, "please stay away from me." With that, Yu Xi Gu turned around and walked back to the shop.
Xiang Hao Ting was kneeling in the night alone. People passed by and pointed at him, but he didn't get up immediately
It's looking in the direction of the bar with bloodshot eyes. It was not “Humiliation" or “Shame" that appeared in his mind, but the fact that Xi Gu had so many painful and incomprehensible past or experience that he knelt directly in such a place without any hesitation.
Clearly he just like him, just want to care for him, why does he always screw up? Last time, this time too. Xiang Hao Ting could not care whether the wound on his knee was bleeding. He got up very slowly and walked home. The palm of his fist was pinched by his fingernails, but he thought Yu Xi Gu must be feeling more painful.
Looking up at the sky, he felt at a loss. For a time, he couldn't recognize the direction of going home, but he didn't think that all his actions were actually seen by John, who had already dealt with his shoulder bruises and quietly came to the window to look out.
In the middle of the night, Xiang Yong Qing walked out of the house, wondering why his brother had been on the sidewalk for such a long time that he would not enter the house.
Xiang Hao Ting was very upset and didn't think about breaking his head, but Yu Xi Gu's crying face was heartbroken every time he thought about it, and his mind became more confused until a familiar voice called him back.
“Why are you here again?"
Xiang Hao Ting didn't respond, just sighed helplessly and squatted down upset.
Xiang Yong Qing felt that her brother was acting strange recently. At first, she didn't care about it, but seeing that her brother was obviously out of his mind and his eyes were empty, she felt that things were very serious.
His sister's care was very warm and slowly seeped into his heart. Xiang Hao Ting can't help but reach out to hold her hand and look at her helplessly.
"Xiang Yong Qing, am I really a self-righteous person?" Xiang Hao Ting asked bitterly. “Do you know now?" Yu Xi Gu thought he was looking for trouble or something else.
He exhaled, wishing to be comforted by his family. It was so stupid that he wailed two times pointlessly: “Dad always scolds me with the saying that I’m a child who never listens that he can't teach me. School teachers hate me most when I'm not under control. Sun Bo, he thinks that I do what I want and I don't think about other people's feelings, so am I really a bad person?"
Am I so bad that even if I want to do something good, it will be misinterpreted as harmful?
In the end, he didn't say the words in his heart, but the vulnerability and self-confidence revealed outside were quite rare. Seeing that he was really lost, Xiang Yong Qing quickly shook her head.
“In fact, you are not so bad." She squatted down to comfort him, “Though sometimes you can be a self-righteous arrogant, and thoughtless.”
Xiang Hao Ting seemed to have be like someone sentenced to death and left behind in despondency. “But, you know, you have a super advantage that no one else has. You are really very kind!"
Xiang Hao Ting was not as complacent when he heard this. He even felt guilty when he asked “Am I?" If he was so kind, how could Yu Xi Gu hate what he did?
"Of course! You are so kind to your friends. They all like you so much. You have girls who loves you very much.”
She also said that she can show off that she has a brother who loves his younger sister very much at school.
"Really?" he asked with a smile.
"Really! Do you remember that time when you just wanted to encourage me to study harder, you studied hard and took the second place in the whole school grade! And that time you were pointed fingers at, you were scolded by everyone, just to protect me. I think... It was very handsome, very hero-ish!"
"Really?" seeing his sister's sincere attitude, Xiang Hao Ting also slowly recovered "a little bit of self-confidence, and nodded weakly. Seeing his brother finally recovered, Xiang Yong Qing was relieved. The two, brother and sister looked at each other in the street at night and laughed.
“So, you're really good enough!" she pulled up her brother and held him tightly. When she raised her face, her chin was right against his chest, which made her even more petite and lovely. “But sometimes you needs to be more careful, more serious, and perfection.”
"Careful and more serious..." these two words hit Xiang Hao Ting's heart several times.
How can Yu Xi Gu see his carefulness and seriousness? He kept asking himself, and finally vaguely felt that an idea was slowly forming in his heart. He tried to see it but it was in vain, but he could only comfort himself at least he had progress, unlike just now when he was at a loss.
He kissed Xiang Yong Qing on the forehead, which was hard and made him find his realization. "You are really my sun," he then led her hand and said, "Let’s go home,”
He swept away the saddening haze just now. Now he is Xiang Hao Ting, who is full of energy and courageous.
There were two people on the small stairs beside the park. The one who was sitting was full of worries, while the one who was lying was smiling.
"Told her?" Sun Bo Xiang asked Xiang Hao Ting about his break up with Li Si Hao.
"Told her! How about you?" Xiang Hao Ting asked about the confession.
"Yes!"
Most of the time, only one sentence and one look can explain everything between brothers. They are as fierce as they just came back from a battle, but they feel comfortable.
Xiang Hao Ting took a sip of his drink and asked, “What happened?" he was sentenced to death and he said, pretending to be cool. "Give up?"
“He said that I was too young and would never mature faster. I really want to know where I can always buy this maturity thing."
His face had a wry smile and felt cruelty. Nowadays, gender seen as better than age gap or vow. Xiang Hao Ting frowned and listened without interruption. He recognized the struggle and bitterness of Sun Bo Xiang's understatement, which is hard to face without a relaxed attitude.
“I've thought about being stubborn, but I can't even make him fall in love with me. And if I force it, he will become miserable. I don't want to do this to him, loving a person means to not make him cry, not to make him sad, loving a person, should be to make him happy." He said that as if he was writing a song. Although the laughter sounds happy, Xiang Hao Ting knows how bitter he was feeling. He watched Sun Bo Xiang come all the way. Of course, he knows how deep his love is and how hard it is at this time.
Maybe it was a very smooth relationship with Li Si Hao when he broke up with her. He thinks there's nothing he can't overcome. He shouted, “I'll go!"
“Where to?”
“To help you." Sun Bo Xiang thinks whether he has listened to more than a dozen sentences less, or how can he feel abandoned by the world.
At this time, the business in the shop was just getting busy. The counter had a long line. Lu Zhi Gang cordially "Greetings how may I help you?.
Xiang Hao Ting took the opportunity to join the team and observed the other man while waiting in line. He was a full-fledged social person with a permanent smile and friendly attitude.
When it's his turn, he stands in front of the other man and took a deep breath. “He's serious."
Lu Zhi Gang was stunned and confused. “He's innocent and he's a virgin.”
“Excuse me, you are?" Lu Zhi Gang was still keeping a good-natured smile, but there was an answer in his heart.
“Sun Bo Xiang’s brother!"
Bingo.
Lu Zhi Gang thought so.
Sun Bo Xiang also came into the store at this time, worry was all over his face and he asked with a glare of his eyes, because he didn't understand what his friend wanted to do at all.
Xiang Hao Ting felt his uneasiness, so he quickly calmed him down with a smile and eyes. But he didn't expect that the tacit understanding of the two people would be offline at such a time. He didn't think of the same thing at all.
“What are you doing?" asked Lu Zhi Gang.
“I told him that I like a boy recently; he told me that to like a man, one should be moved by the other person's sincereness."
"Xiang Hao Ting!”
“What are you talking about?" Sun Bo Xiang felt ashamed and tried to stop him, but he forgot that this friend has always been like himself, which he can’t stop.
“He, he will give everything, and his first time to his favourite person, that person is you!"
Sun Bo Xiang couldn't stand to hear any more. He grabbed his friend and warned him, “Shut up now!" then he took the person away immediately from Lu Zhi Gang, but Xiang Hao Ting was talking hard and pushed him away again.
“What do you think is the sense of security when you lose? Is it more important than love? Are you a man? Do you only use ageism to push him...?”
Sun Bo Xiang was forced to hurry up and shouted, “Well, it's none of your business!"
Lu Zhi Gang saw that the situation was notgoing so good, and hurriedly warned them that this is a public place, and it is also adjacent to the residential school district. If the voice they make is too loud or cause too much fracas, it may attract enthusiastic people to call the police, which will be more troublesome.
"I dare you to say that I can’t help you, your business is my business!" Xiang Hao Ting said forcefully.
“I don't want you to come here and talk to him about all this!"
“Why do you do so much for him, that is, you don't want him to know?" Xiang Hao Ting didn't know why his friend wanted to cover up. He felt that he would not lose face if he gave all his heart for the people he liked.
“Is it useful? Is it useful?”
“I don't want to see your pain and sorrowful face again!"
Lu Zhi Gang saw that they were quarrelling more and more fiercely. He felt very tired. Why did these students not like to listen to others reasoning’s? He couldn't bear to walk out of the counter and shouted to the two people, "That’s enough! This is where I work. Do you know respect?”
Xiang Hao Ting heard his roar and planned to pull him. But Lu Zhi Gang is an adult. He is never afraid of them childish threat and angry stare. He knows better to deal with things from the root. So he took off his apron directly, pointed to Sun Bo Xiang and said, "Come out with me" and walked out of the store.
Sun Bo Xiang was so angry that he glared at his friend and walked out. Xiang Hao Ting wanted to go out, at least to help say something, but he saw that Yu Xi Gu had just walked into the store he stayed.
Yu Xi Gu in an apron softened him instantly. What about his friend's feelings troubles? Sun Bo Xiang and his troubles slipped to the second place in an instant. Yu Xi Gu stayed in the first place.
Lu Zhi Gang took Sun Bo Xiang to the alley behind the store in silence. Sun Bo Xiang didn't know whether he was angry or not. He could only bow down and be scolded like a child who made mistakes. Lu Zhi Gang turned to stare at him, his expression was not emotional, and his voice was quite hoarse.
“Why do you want to be with me? Have you ever been in love?" asked Lu Zhi Gang.
"No, you are the first."
"Then what kind of love do you talk to me about? Do you know me? Do you know what I like to eat? Do you know what to do so that I can be happy every day? Do you know that when I am not happy, that you have to come to me at the first time? You don't know anything."
Sun Bo Xiang lowered his eyes and was deeply aggrieved. It's true that he can't say everything clearly, some of things are even small details that can only be known after actual communication start, but the other side doesn't even give the opportunity for him to communicate, so how can he know.
“I had three boyfriends, each of whom I loved wholeheartedly, but what did I get in the end? They said that I gave them too much pressure and no freedom. No matter how hard I tried and how much I gave in, they still chose to leave me. Yes, I'm selfish and self-centred, so I don't want to love anymore now, do you understand?"
He's in too much pain. It took too much time and effort to heal every time he was broken hearted. It's too bad for him. If every love is doomed to end up in hurt, pain and loss, it's better not to have it at the beginning. This is the answer Lu Zhi Gang gave himself after healing.
"Are you trying to make me give up?" Sun Bo Xiang said with a bitter face. He didn't dare to say that he fully understood, but he could feel the fear of the other man, which forced him to arm up and refuse all love. “Did you die?" No. But what can he do if he doesn't give up? The last thing he wants to see is Lu Zhi Gang's sadness and guilt, so
He was so angry at Xiang Hao Ting's actions. It's enough hard for him alone. There's no need for two people to experience hardness of love.
He lowered his face and walked towards the road in silence.
Seeing this situation, Lu Zhi Gang was in a complex mood. He thought that Sun Bo Xiang would stubbornly argue with him, and he tried his best to tell him that love was as frank and courageous as before. The heart's wall, which had been torn apart by Sun Bo Xiang enthusiasm, could not resist several attacks. If Sun Bo Xiang tried harder, it would collapse...
But Sun Bo Xiang just walked away.
Have you been angry? Have you finally given up? No more efforts? These complex emotions hovered in his mind, and finally rushed to the tip of your nose. He wanted to cry for a moment, but he couldn't help laughing. The complex emotions are the same as when he looked at his mobile phone in the shop that night and recalled his memories of getting along with Sun Bo Xiang. He couldn't figure out what he wanted, whether the other side was missing him or giving up on him...
He massaged the back of his neck helplessly, which still has no answer to today. Suddenly, a sound of footsteps came. As soon as Lu Zhi Gang came back to his senses, he saw Sun Bo Xiang coming to him, his eyes full of enthusiasm and sincerity.
“I don't know if I understand you or how to make you happy every day. I don't know what to do when you are angry. I can't solve these problems at the moment. But I am Sun Bo Xiang, I know what I want! I only want you!"
As long as you are happy, as long as you are happy, as long as you are happy!
It's like he was saying all the emotions over the past four hundred days in one breath, shouting that two kinds of emotions are red, “It doesn't matter if you don't want to love, so just let me love you! You believe me just this once, I will prove that I love you with all I have!"
What is this feeling of relief? Lu Zhi Gang couldn't answer, but he knows that he took long breath. Sun Bo Xiang is catching up. He is really selfish and self-centred. The pain and suffering are actually excuses to cover up the end result of being abandoned after he didn't want to take the initiative. But... Sun Bo Xiang is the first one in these years who has tried his best to enter his heart.
It's a lie to say he wasn’t moved. At first, he was flustered. He thought that his dead heart could be restless to someone else. Then there was the confusion. He didn't know whether such a young and playful child would hurt him like his former boyfriends, he doesn't have the strength to do it again
Again, it is the heart. He was really moved by the heat of the feeling, but he was afraid and struggled several times. Just now he saw that Sun Bo Xiang left him like this. On the one hand, he was disappointed and comforted. At least, he won't be hurt this time.
But... Sun Bo Xiang caught up again.
This time, Lu Zhi Gang knows that he can't lie himself any more. He looked at the other man's eyes and didn't talk much. He just pulled Sun Bo Xiang into his arms and hugged him. He said "You can’t lie to me" in a low voice.
After all, he really didn't know if he could get back on his feet if he was hurt again.
"No!" Sun Bo Xiang was very happy and promised.
"This is the first time someone has told me that." Lu Zhi Gang said as he cried. For the first time, someone was so desperate for him, and for the first time, he felt that he should respond to someone needing him badly. He could not hide in the corner as before and not listen. Both of them were in tears, but the corners of their mouths stretched in a happy smile. Lu Zhi Gang grasped the other person's hand and took him to walk slowly. He felt as if he has grasped the happiness after being late to it for a long time, and at the same time, he persuades himself not to think about all this, which is really untrue, and whether he will regret it. He was thinking about how to give back the same happiness and feelings to the other man.
Lu Zhi Gang wants to be brave and fight for love again.
Xiang Hao Ting and Yu Xi Gu were walking on the road. Neither of them spoke. The atmosphere was very heavy.
Both of them did not forget what happened on that day. Xiang Hao Ting knew that he was impulsive, so he was silent. Yu Xi Gu's silence was because of what John said.
That night, he apologized to the boss immediately after returning to the store. The boss told him to not to mind, and he also teased him if he was caught working in secret from his boyfriend. Yu Xi Gu quickly refuted that it was just someone from the same school.
John said it didn't look like it. Yu Xi Gu had to tell him about Xiang Hao Ting's troubles. John laughed and said, "You students are so young that you make me miss the days when I was young.”
“I guess you may not listen to this, but I don't think someone who really wants to trouble you will be so anxious to kneel to you on the spot."
He felt the shoulder that had hit the floor because he had been beaten back. Seeing Yu Xi Gu's face was still guilty, he said: "Well, let's take this as an apology. If you have a chance to face him next time, try to look him in the eye."
Yu Xi Gu didn't understand, so he asked why? John replied that if a person has an abnormal mind and impure motive, the eye would be the best judgment base.
He said that there are many ways, but this one is the simplest, so he wanted Yu Xi Gu try this way first, which is not low in success rate. Seeing Yu Xi Gu frowning and hesitating, John was not reluctant either, because he could see how much the boy who came to find fault was attached to Yu Xi Gu across the distance. He even knelt down, grabbed his shoulder and wanted him to get up. Even after he returned to the shop, the boy still stared at Yu Xi Gu and left after a long time. If it's pure trouble maker, it's too much sacrifice to kneel down, plus the look in his eyes
John is no stranger to that kind of look. In his very youth days, very distant school days, he had a friend who was full of feelings but lack how to express them. He always looked at people he liked with this kind of look.
"Try it, if you have a chance." John said with a look of reminiscence.
When the mood receded, all that remains is reason. Yu Xi Gu and Xiang Hao Ting both understood that he was too impulsive to kneel and beat someone at that time, but it was embarrassing to mention it again. They were silent and speechless, so they went to Yu Xi Gu's apartment.
“Here we are."
Xiang Hao Ting said in a hoarse voice. "Oh!"
Yu Xi Gu turned around and is about to leave. The atmosphere along the way was too oppressive, even he couldn't stand it. He doesn't know whether it's better to keep silent or to speak actively... he doesn't know what to say.
It's a rare time that someone who always gave him a cold shoulder to say something to him. After struggling for several times, he finally caught up with the runner.
In any case, it has to be explained clearly. If Yu Xi Gu doesn't listen or forgive, he will not be considered as an obstacle by Xiang Hao Ting. What he can do is to express his sincerity with all his heart.
"May I come to your room? I have something to tell you." Yu Xi Gu was trying to refuse, but Xiang Hao Ting at this moment gave him a different feeling.
“Try it if you have a chance.” John said earlier looking nostalgic.
“Here we are."
“Look at the eyes." flashed through his mind, he subconsciously looked at the other man's eyes, in addition to himself, there were some serious things rarely seen before in Xiang Hao Ting’s eyes.
He didn't know if it was his head that was dizzy, or if John's words were too persuasive, he fell into hesitation about whether to agree or not
If he doesn't agree, you would have fail John's hard work. But if he agrees, will he make his life a mess again? He didn't find an answer for a long time. He thought Xiang Hao Ting would be more stubborn and even forceful because of this. Who knows that Xiang Hao Ting just waited in silence, and with no more actions? That kind of expression of uncontrollable and anxious expression is exactly the same as that time when he was half kneeling in front of Yu Xi Gu that night.
After several hesitations, Yu Xi Gu agreed to listen to what he wanted to say. As soon as he entered the room, Xiang Hao Ting looked around curiously and showed a surprise look because Yu Xi Gu didn't live like a high school student. The clean and simple interior highlighted Yu Xi Gu's life attitude of no desire for flashy things, no preference and no vision, as if he is just “Here, but not living here”
He's really thrifty... Xiang Hao Ting finally understands why he works so hard for full marks, scholarships, and jobs, and he was so angry that he went to his job place to make trouble, because he really needs money.
“What do you want to say to me?" Yu Xi Gu asked. Xiang Hao Ting began to speak as he watched him carefully.
“I want to explain it to you. I've been looking for an opportunity to apologize to you. I'm not really trying to mess with you. After sabotaging your exam, I regret and blamed myself, so I followed you. I wanted to say sorry to you, and I broke up with Li Si Hao. "
Yu Xi Gu frowned, apparently not believing the explanation.
Xiang Hao Ting took a deep breath, thinking that it's no wonder the other person doesn't believe it. Because what he has done before was really too much, but he still decided to finish what he wanted to say in one breath. It is important to be sincere and serious.
“I didn't mean to mess up your job in the bar, because I was..."
Because I was too worried that you would get into bad habits when working in that place, or be stared at by other weird guests, and the time was so late, walking alone at night the road is very dangerous... All of these, he said that night, now just if he could just repeat them.
Yu Xi Gu wanted to say he just went to work, but he was interrupted before he finished speaking.
“I really like you!"
He plucked up his courage to approach Yu Xi Gu and bent down slowly, as if a man deep in love trying to kiss him. Both can see their own reflection in the other man's eyes - and then the kiss came true.
Xiang Hao Ting summoned up his courage and kissed him.
There is no aggression, nor sweet kisses shared between lovers. That kiss is more like a gesture. Yu Xi Gu was stunned and forgot to run away.
Seeing that the other side didn't resist, Xiang Hao Ting took a sigh of relief and slowly retreated. Yu Xi Gu just opened his eyes as wide as if he woke up. The temperature left on his lips was warm and the scent was light, but... “I don't like boys..."
“I don't like boys either.” Xiang Hao Ting said in some distress, “But I'm sure I like you. I'm serious. I hope you will believe me. "
Can he believe him? Yu Xi Gu was not sure to say yes or no. He was still afraid that Xiang Hao Ting was trying to prank or mess with him. Once bitten by a snake, one will be afraid of grass rope for ten years, let alone twice.
Xiang Hao Ting said “See you at school tomorrow" and left after seeing his complicated expression. When he came out of Yu Xi Gu's room, he couldn't help smiling and was in high spirits.
He consciously drew closer to Yu Xi Gu, and bravely spoke out his heart voice. He had fulfilled all the expectations he had given him before he came.
Although he didn't know what Yu Xi Gu's reaction would be and whether he would reject him because of all the things that had happened before, he was patient and determined to show sincerity and let Yu Xi Gu believe that his intentions were true.
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