Chapter 73: You Are Shameless

 Years of Intoxication 《一醉經年》 Yi Zui Jing Nian.  

 Chapter 73: You Are Shameless

After Song Ju Han fell asleep, He Gu gently walked into the bathroom and stopped by the sink. In the mirror, a pale, sullen face with a tearful tear on his eyes was reflected.

The face gradually overlaps with the younger ones. He seems to be able to see his past confusion and uneasiness through the mirror. For seven years, he thought he had gone very long and far and finally found that he was only went around a drawn circle.

It is ironic that he is such a person who can't even say a word of love, but he is trapped in it for all his life.

He even felt that he had died once.

He washed his face, tried to adjust his mood and then went out.

Song He and Vanessa  were waiting for him downstairs. The two are sitting at the two ends of the sofa and they can touch each other clearly, but the distance is very far.

Couples, but this is the case like him and Song Ju Han.

The weakest and most un-guaranted thing in the world is the feeling/emotions, for even if there are still thousands of white bones marked with it and some people are not afraid of death and go longing for it.

When they heard the footsteps, the two raised their heads at the same time and watched as he stepped down the stairs.

Vanessa whispered, "Is he eating?"

He Gu shook his head: "Sleeping, wait for him to wake up and he will eat."

Vanessa breathed a sigh of relief, hands clasped to the lips and said a bunch of German prayers.

Song He's nose was agitated, staring coldly at He Gu.

He Gu sat in the opposite side of Song He and calmly looked directly at him: "I came back this time, not because you threatened me with two sentences, but for Song Ju Han, you don't need to swear at me, if you didn't lie to him that I went to Singapore and I will not come back to Singapore. Well, he wouldn't have ended up like this. Your own son's psychological age is not old enough matured."

   Song Ju Han's treatment of outsiders is a  singularity thought and unreasonable treatment of his own relatives is two extremes of his character's watershed. Song Ju Han is always like a precocious child, looking mature but he has not matured well yet. He always likes to be outside. Do a good job to earn awe and then leave the inferior work to the closest person.

Song He narrowed his eyes: "You dare to educate me?"

He Gu sneered: "I am not obliged to educate you." In order to  save Vanessa's face it is inconvenient to say it more things which are difficult to hear. "From now on, I will try not to appear in front of you and you try not to appear in front of me. I will never forgive you for doing what you did. We don't see things as clean and everyone is comfortable."

Song He's expression was stunned and he wanted to speak but before he could Vanessa low steel voice stopped him: "Song He, we have just discussed it."

Song He bit his teeth, stood up and finished arranging the tie, pointing to He Gu he said: "My Song family has such a son, you are to blame for it." He finished, slammed the door.

Vanessa sighed: "He Gu, what are you talking about?"

He Gu was silent and said as plainly as possible: "Vanessa, I decided to try it again with him."




There was a hint of surprise and joy in Vanessa's eyes: "Really, really?" Immediately, she was worried about his face. "You are doing this because you tortured yourself like this..."

He Gu nodded and shook his head: "More than that, I really can't watch him go on like this, especially if he hurts himself. But I also thought a lot during this time. We both said that it is awkward, maybe this is really something that we have been involved in all the time. If we want to break it, we can't break it. If we want to stop hurting each other, it's better..."

Vanessa couldn't help but smile. The eyelids flashed in the autumn water: "Too good, he has received a lot of lessons, I believe he will cherish it this time."

He Gu smiled and didn't speak. Song Ju Han will not cherish it very much. Not at the last moment and there will be no answer. Just thinking about the shortness of life and when he is dead it will be pointless, why bother to think about when a person changed or changes his mind.

Maybe its just the time to go and get it, then do everything later, listen to the hand of fate.

Vanessa gently covered her heart and even with such dramatic movements, she was so beautiful. She seemed so happy that she didn't know how to calm herself: "If you are not busy these days, stay here, okay?"

He Gu nodded. "These days must have been hard for you."

Vanessa smiled and said: "There is no way to not bear it. If I didn't teach him well, I should bear the consequences."

He Gu hesitated for a moment: "Song He..."

"You don't worry about him, I will talk to him. In any case, he cares about Ju Han."

He Gu thought that Song He really cares about Song Ju Han, but the selfishness of the father and the son is almost exactly the same.

He Gu sat on the edge of the bed and quietly looked at Song Ju Han's sleeping face, the thin cheeks are slightly sunken at this time, looking very awkward, the man lying on the bed, the body looked like it was stuck in the bed, it is like a man who suffered a dilibitating disease for long time.

He Gu thought that Song Ju Han could end up troubled again, his heart can't stand it anymore.

Suddenly, Song Ju Han's eyelashes trembled.

He Gu was in a shock, grabbed the book at hand and flipped a page, staring at the book and the light was on the bed.

Song Ju Han slowly opened his eyes, from haze to waking it only took a short two seconds, then he instinctively shouted: "He Gu..."

He Gu put down the book: "You woke up."

Song Ju Han turned to look at him, reached out and grabbed his arm, his eyes brightened: "You are really there."

"Of course I am." He Gu asked "Hungry?"

Song Ju Han stared straight at He Gu, shaking with a desire that seemed to want to swallow him into his stomach, "I thought I was dreaming."

"If you are hungry again, you really would be hallucinating.... Eat something."




Song Ju Han nodded.

He Gu get up to get the meal, but Song Ju Han did not let him go: "You ....don't go."

"I am going to get you something to eat."

Song Ju Han fixedly looked at him: "When are you coming back?"

"Ten seconds." He Gu pointed to the table, "The food is just on the table."

Song Ju Han tried his best to lift his neck and glanced at the insulation cover on the table, then he released his hand.

He Gu pulled the insulation cover open and the food was still hot. He put the tray on the bed and helped Song Ju Brother Han to sit up. "Hurry and eat something."

Song Ju Han revealed a weak smile: "You feed me." Just then when he grabbed He Gu that grip consumed the last strength of his body.

He Gu used a spoon to stir the porridge, pick up a spoonful and send it to Ju Han mouth.

Song Ju Han was simply full of joy, he opened his big mouth and ate fully.

"You haven't eaten for so many days, you can only drink some porridge first, otherwise the stomach will respond badly."

Song Ju Han didn't care what he was eating. He only had eyes and his mind on He Gu. He  chewed his mouth like a robot.

He Gu was annoyed that he couldn't stand it, he put down the spoon and said helplessly: "Can you eat well?"

"How come you think I don't eat well." Song Ju Han opened his mouth "ah".

He Gu pick up a big spoon and stuff it into his mouth.

After eating a large bowl of porridge, Song Ju Han obviously looked a little bit more spiritual. He grabbed He Gu hand and stares at his eyes. From time to time, he will show a smile.

"You are being too much. don't look at me, you will end up in panic." He Gu handed him the medicine and boiled water, "take the medicine and we will call the doctor to give you nutrient solution for a while."

"Don't call him, I don't want to see anyone now." Song Ju Han hugged his arm. "You can accompany me only."

"Don't make trouble, you are physically weak now and the injuries on your arms need to be checked."

"I really don't want to see anyone." Song Ju Han stared at He Gu. "You stay with me."

"No, you have to see a doctor now." He Gu took his hand back and say, "You won't obey me this time?."

Song Ju Han immediately sat up straight: "Yes, not only this time, but also will be obedient all the time."

He Gu smiled.

He called the doctor. The doctor and nurse checked Song Ju Han. After giving the fluid, Vanessa  saw his son finally "alive". She reprimanded him. Song Ju Han, despite being weak, listened with a smile.

Song Ju Han has good physical fitness and recovered his spirit in a few days. He can  jump around, he injury on his head was recovered to the point they could remove the gauze but the arm was still plastered and the movement was inconvenient, but at this time he seemed to be able to follow He Gu legs.

Since that day, Song He has not appeared again. He Gu has always been left with Vanessa to take care of Ju Han. Occasionally, she will personally cook a few Western dishes, but the taste is mixed.

He Gu read books, fed the fish and accompanied Song Ju Han every day and the days were very idle. He seems to be somewhat incomprehensible with Song Ju Han. He always feels that something is between them. Song Ju Han also found out that the more he wants to be close, the more dull he is, the more he feels depressed.

In the evening, He Gu receive a call and his mother said with mixed feelings that Qin Qing was checked. He was pleased that Li's father and son's bribery was turned over a few years ago. The worry is that the shares in her hands will shrink.  But after he was kidnapped, she really wanted to move away from that family. In the past, He Gu had advised her so many times that it had no effect. Instead, it was the crazy move of Li and his son, which made her really understand the weight of money.

He Gu persuade: "This is a good thing. If they have been at large, we will always be afraid."

"Yeah." Sun Qing sighed, "I also figured out that nothing is better than our family." She paused. "You said this won't  be Song He behind the scene?"

"It is possible that a few years ago, I would make a fuss about it now I am willing to work hard and have this ability."

" It is probably only Song He."

Sun Qing said with some emotions, "I didn't expect to depend the strength of these two father and son to help us at the end and I don't know if it is a bad thing."

"No matter what, this is good for us. Even if the investment company takes the opportunity to suppress the price, you should sell it and sell it fast."

"Well, I think so. The same price, I just sell it to others and it won't be cheaper."

"Right, how is Su Su these days?"

"Nothing, she is more sensible than you think. She doesn't like Li family. For so many years, apart from Li Chen Xing, which Li family came to visit her? As for her father, I believe she can understand."

"That's good." What He Gu is most worried about is Su Su, but some injuries are hard to avoid.

Hanging up the phone, He Gu turned around and was amazed. Song Ju Han actually looked at him not from far away. He calmed down. "Are you not taking a shower?"

Song Ju Han shook the plaster on his hand. "There is something in the care worker's house. You will go first. I can't shower by myself."

He Gu frowned and undressed him unceremoniously: "Do you want me to wash you?"

Song Ju Han smiled and spoiled: "Would you wash me?"

"You don't have to wash today, it's not dirty."He Gu turned around.

Song Ju Han stretched his arm and grabbed his waist. His lips pressed against his ear and said, "But I want you to wash me."

He Gu body was stiff and wanted to push him away.

Although Song Ju Han was only able to move with his right hand, his strength was also terrifying. He  Gu was as restrained as the iron pliers. Some of them were wronged and said, "Why are always hiding from me?"

He Gu looked up at him: "We are together 24 hours a day, how can I hide from you?"

Song Ju Han stared at him for two seconds, suddenly bowed his lips and kissed him hard.

The sudden kiss made He Gu heart suddenly jumped up in  drums and he accepted the kiss stiffly and passively, but even if the heart was surging, but he did not respond.

The four warm lips slowly separated and Song Ju Han whispered, "You are hiding from me."

He Gu frowned: "I am now taking off my time here and sleeping with you, can I  hide from you?"

Song Ju Han loosened his arm and said with some frustration: "I don't mean that, just... forget it, I know that you have a knot,  how long it takes I will wait for you to untie it, I'm waiting with you..." Song Ju Han stared at He Gu eyes, his eyes are firm and gentle, " Till you really accept me."

He Gu eyes flashed and eventually nothing was said.

What is not acceptable, he is not a woman, sex is not a shame for him, if it is a wishful thinking, it is even more impossible for him to be taken advantage of, he is just, just afraid that Song Ju Han knows his innermost desire, making him felt a little shameful.

He never thought that he would be so addicted, but like most men, he really likes to have sex and the one when he topped Zhou He Yi is of course beautiful, but he still feel it was not enough, in this  world the person who is most familiar with his body and most able to bring him a sense of insatiable feelings is in front of him and he does not have to say anything else. The man's lower-half-body is very honest.

However, Song Ju Han's injury is still not good and he is not so hungry for sex. As for the obstacle that he can't make in his heart, since he has decided to come back with Song Ju Han, it should not be a problem, at least, the problem he has to solve himself.

Song Ju Han seemed to feel some thoughts about He Gu and kissed his hair gently: "I have a request, you must promise me."

"Well? What?"

          "Whatever you think in your heart, what you want me to do, what is making you dissatisfied, what is making you angry, what is making you happy, what you want, what you don't want, you must tell me." Song Ju Han said earnestly, "How much has happened between us? Communication errors is the main cause, you should be clear in your heart. You always like to suffocate everything in your heart. I don't know if I am doing something wrong. If I do something wrong, you have to yell at me, hit me, as long as you don't feel happy about something, I will change, just don't refuse to tell me, then accumulate it to a certain exten only to then count the general ledger with me, I am really afraid of your punishment."




He Gu knows that they have this problem? He is so savvy, disdainful, unwilling to argue, not good at explaining things. He feels that what men can solve should be digested internally. As a result, many things that he had endured for a moment were buried in the bottom of his heart. The deeper and deeper the accumulation, the more powerful it was. When it finally broke out, the power was hard to imagine. He used the temporary "greatness goal" to constantly lower his bottom line. As a result, the bottom line did not lose its toughness. Instead, it bottomed out and hurt them.

He Gu nodded: "You are right, we should communicate in time."

Song Ju Han breathed a sigh of relief, smiled, couldn't help but kiss him on the face and wandered back to the original topic: "Then you help me bathe? You see, I like this honest thing, I will honestly say it. "

"You are shameless," he said coldly.

"I'm only being shameless with you." Song Ju Han was holding and smiling with a gentle smile.

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