I’ll Still Love You Even if You’re a Man 2,Chapter 23: What a creature humans are.

I’ll Still Love You Even if You’re a Man 2 《你是男的我也爱》Ni Shi Nan De Wo Ye Ai
I’ll Still Love You Even if You’re a Man 2,Chapter 23: What a creature humans are.

The bus eased along the smooth, wide road, and Mai Ding leaned his head against the window, the fog in his eyes had been lifted, and he still didn't cry out. Would An Ziyan come after himself if he kept walking to the bus stop? His thoughts and actions went against each other, and by the time he reached the familiar platform, Mai Ding got out of the bus anyway, looking up at his and An Ziyan's home and walking silently in the direction he was supposed to go. Come back, become a habit, and sooner or later, waiting will become a habit.


He took out the key, but did not want to open the door, because he knew very well that An Ziyan was not inside, but where could he go, after entering the house and closing the door he looked around the room, will he be stuck in it later, humbly waiting for An Ziyan, from youth to middle age to old age, all he can do is wait? He was suddenly a little afraid that even if he could do that, one day it was likely that he would never wait for An Ziyan to return.

If he wished he could no longer work, would he destroy his legs and his personality, dip them in the formalin of love and wait to be disconnected from society?

The key in his hand fell to the floor, Mai Ding saw the resume that had been printed out on the coffee table by himself, he rushed up and picked it up one by one, tearing at it hard, the pieces kept falling out of his hand, it was no longer needed, he threw the scrap paper into the trash can and then he pulled out his phone and turned it off, this one was no longer needed either, before rushing into the bedroom to pull out the wire and find a job or something, it was no longer needed, he just needed An Ziyan, and An Ziyan just wanted him to stay home.

He took a rag and started to wipe down every piece of furniture so that he wouldn't have to worry about not being able to find a job and not worrying about the cruel society, he would just stay at home leisurely, which couldn't be better. He rubbed desperately, the sweat sliding down his forehead and into his eyes, and he closed them tightly, trying to rub it with the back of his hand, but couldn't get it away.

What will I do with my life? I also want to know what the next stage of growing up is like, and I want to be like you with a job and co-workers, and I wonder...is it a betrayal of love if I hold such thoughts? Is it me being too selfish, An Ziyan, where are you, can you answer my question? You are not there, and I sit in this world and see that you are going to another world, but I just sit and wait for the time when I want to keep up with you, and you are already in another world. Everyone went, just me.

Mai Ding cooked the meal alone, sits quietly at the dinner table, washes the dishes alone, sits on the couch and presses the remote control alone, takes a shower alone, and lies in bed early in the morning. He left all the lights in the room on, he couldn't cry or get angry, he was getting used to living like this lately, An Ziyan was sometimes too busy and would come back late. He suddenly wanted nothing to think about, so desperate for sleep. But the more desperately man tries to fall asleep, sleep plays tricks on you, and everything is against him, his eyes open, his eyes closed, so repeatedly and uselessly. Boredom and insomnia might be a good pair of friends.

When is An Ziyan going to return, what will he say when he returns, what will he say himself, will the two fight? The word quarrelsome may not be the right word, but the one who has been in the mood since the beginning is himself.




Mai Ding didn't know how long passed, he heard the sound of the door opening, the sound of clothes falling to the floor, the sound of water in the bathroom, the sound of the lights being turned off one by one, the sound of An Ziyan laying down beside him, and then the sound of steady familiar breathing. An Ziyan acted like nothing had happened, should he ask something himself? But who stipulated that An Ziyan had to admit himself in front of his colleagues to be right, for a moment, he did not know what An Ziyan had done wrong, nor did he know what he had done wrong, so how to explain the current situation and mood.

Mai Ding was really okay inside while he was gone, and while he was, Mai Ding was suddenly so, so in need of warmth, and his lonely body for a day wanted to be surrounded by An Ziyan, he felt so ridiculous, so stupid, that just a hug would give him satisfaction, and he could pretend that nothing was happening. While watching TV and watching the news, he had also felt helpless and incomprehensible towards lovers who did all sorts of stupid things for their feelings, and now look at himself, maybe at this moment there are people scolding himself for not being too humble. But the emotions are terrible, and the heart knows better than anyone else, but you can't do it, and you can't be shouted at by anyone.

In the darkness, An Ziyan's voice came too abruptly, "Did you understand?" A heavy blow came to Mai Ding's chest, was the time An Ziyan had given him too short to give up all of itself was something that could be decided in just one night? His first or only concern was this? How else was his own wound to be placed before his eyes before he could see it? He probably already guessed the result, he would give up for him, willing to stay at home, where in the world did he get the confidence, huh, he really should be confident, Mai Ding's mouth said in reply, "I finally understand."

"Also, don't just turn off your phone in the future." Future? Whose hereafter, mine or the one you have prescribed for me? Does it make a difference if I turn off my phone or not? I will just wait at home for your return. These words Mai Ding did not say, he was tired of arguing today, only shallowly replied, "Mmh."

At his near collapse, An Ziyan reached out and naturally took Mai Ding into his arms, as if the two had never argued or pretended not to know Mai Ding today as if today was no different than usual, his voice languid with sleepiness, as if he would fall asleep at any moment, sounding like muttering, "Wait for me to wake up." The warmth pressed against his back and Mai Ding closed his eyes, a rolling teardrop slid down and was absorbed by the pillow, he forgot about his life later, forgot about work, this second, he needed just this warmth.

What a creature man is, how he can be so helpless to those he loves.



~ I’ll Still Love You Even if You’re a Man 2 (Sequel) ~





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